burst the bubble....

sometimes i wish i could disappear.
or turn back time.
ignore the reality that seems like a nightmare.
i insist on seeing the good in everyone.
i realize that's naive.
but i believe it anyway.
and this is what happens.
the world flips upside down and i feel as if everything is lost.
when you are least expecting it.
you don't understand, it's out of your hands.
i feel myself wishing i was at home, as if somehow this wouldn't happen if i was at home...but i felt as if this was home.
so now what?